Wish (1992)

open

high

apart

from the edge of the deep green sea

wendy time

doing the unstuck

friday i'm in love

trust

a letter to elise

cut

to wish impossible things

end

Open

 

I really don't know what I'm doing here

I really think I should've gone to bed tonight but...

"Just one drink

And there're some people to meet you

I think that you'll like them

I have to say we do

And I promise in less than an hour we will honestly go...

Now why don't I just get you another

While you just say hello..."

 

Yeah just say hello...

 

So I'm clutching it tight

Another glass in my hand

And my mouth and the smiles

Moving up as I stand up

Too close and too wide

And the smiles are too bright

And I breathe  in too deep

And my head's getting light

But the air is getting heavier and it's closer

And I'm starting to sway

And the hands all on my shoulders don't have names

And they won't go away

So here I go

Here I go again...

 

Falling into strangers

And it's only just eleven

And I'm staring like a child

Until someone slips me heaven

And I take it on my knees

Just like a thousand times before

And I get transfixed

That fixed

And I'm just looking at the floor

Just looking at the floor

Yeah I look at the floor...

 

And I'm starting to laugh

Like an animal in pain

And I've got blood on my hands

And I've got hands in my brain

And the first short retch

Leaves me gasping for more

And I stagger over screaming

On my way to the floor

And I'm back on my back

With the lights and the lies in my eyes

And the colour and the music's too loud

And my head's all the wrong size

So here I go

Here I go again...

 

Yeah I laugh and I jump

And I sing and I laugh

And I dance and I laugh

And I laugh and I laugh

And I can't seem to think

Where this is

Who I am

Why I'm keeping this going

Keep pouring it out

Keep pouring it down

Keeping it going

Keep pouring it down

And the way the rain comes down hard...

That's the way I feel inside...

 

I can't take it anymore

This it I've become

This is it like I get

When my life's going numb

I just keep moving my mouth

I just keep moving my feet

I say I'm loving to death

Like I'm losing my breath

And all the smiles that I wear

And all the games that I play

And all the drinks that I mix

And I drink until I'm sick

And all the faces I make

And all the shapes that I throw

And all the people I meet

And all the words that I know

Makes me sick to the heart

Oh I feel so tired...

 

And the way the rain comes down hard...

That's how I feel inside...

High

 

When I see you sky as a kite

As high as I might

I can't get that high

The how you move

The way you burst the clouds

It makes me want to try

 

When I see you sticky as lips

As licky as trips

I can't lick that far

But when you pout

The way you shout out loud

It makes me want to start

And when I see you happy as a girl

That swims in a world of magic show

It makes me bite my fingers through

To think I could've let you go

 

And when I see you

Take the same sweet steps

You used to take

I say I'll keep on holding you

My arms so tight

I'll never let you slip away

 

And when I see you kitten as a cat

Yeah as smitten as that

I can't get that small

The way you fur

The how you purr

It makes me want to paw you all

And when I see you happy as a girl

That lives in a world of make-believe

It makes me pull my hair all out

To think I could've let you leave

 

And when I see you

Take the same sweet steps

You used to take

I know I'll keep on holding you

In arms so tight

They'll never let you go

Apart

 

He waits for her to understand

But she won't understand at all

She waits all night for him to call

But he won't call anymore

He waits to hear her say

"Forgive"

But she just drops her pearl-black eyes

And prays to hear him say

"I love you"

But he tells no more lies

 

He waits for her to sympathize

But she won't sympathize at all

She waits all night to feel his kiss

But always wakes alone

He waits to hear her say

"Forget"

But she just hangs her head in pain

And prays to hear him say

"No more

I'll never leave again"

 

How did we get this far apart?

We used to be so close together

How did we get this far apart?

I thought this love would last forever

 

He waits for her to understand

But she won't understand at all

She waits all night for him to call

But he won't call

He waits to hear her say

"Forgive"

But she just drops her pearl black eyes

And prays to hear him say

"I love you"

But he tells no more lies

 

How did we get this far apart?

We used to be so close together

How did we get this far apart?

I thought this love would last forever

From The Edge Of The Deep Green Sea

 

Every time we do this

I fall for her

Wave after wave after wave

It's all for her

"I know this can't be wrong" I say

(And I'll lie to keep her happy)

"As long as I know that you know

That today I belong right here with you"

 

Right here with you...

 

And so we watch the sun come up

From the edge of the deep green sea

And she listens like her head's on fire

Like she wants to believe in me

So I try

"Put your hands in the sky

Surrender

Remember

We'll be here forever

We'll never say goodbye..."

 

I've never been so

Colourfully-see-through-head before

I've never been so

Wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more

And all I want is to keep it like this

You and me alone

A secret kiss

And don't go home

Don't go away

Don't let this end

Please stay...

Not just for today...

 

"Never never never never never let me go" she says

"Hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days"

But suddenly she slows

And looks down at my breaking face

"Why do you cry?

What did I say?"

"But it's just rain" I smile

Brushing my tears away...

 

I wish I could just stop

I know another moment will break my heart

Too many tears

Too many times

Too many years I've cried over you

 

How much more can we use it up?

Drink it dry?

Take this drug?

Looking for something forever gone

But something we will always want...

 

"Why why why are you letting me go?" she says

"I feel you pulling back

I feel you changing shape"

And just as I'm breaking free

She hangs herself in front of me

Slips her dress like a flag to the floor

And hands in the sky

Surrenders it all...

 

I wish I could just stop

I know another moment will break my heart

Too many tears

Too many times

Too many years I've cried for you

It's always the same

Wake up in the rain

Head in pain

Hung in shame

A different name

Same old game

Love in vain

And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles

Away from home again...

Wendy Time

 

"You look like you could do with a friend" she said

"You look like you could use a hand

Someone to make you smile" she said

"Someone who can understand

Share your trouble

Comfort you

Hold you close

And I can do all of these...

I think you need me here with you"

 

"You look like you could do with a sister" she said

"You look like you need a girl to call your own... like...

Fabulous! Fabulous!

Call me Fabulous!"

And rubbing her hands so slow

"You stare at me all strange" she said

"Are you hungry for more?"

"I've had enough" I said

"Please leave me alone

Please go"

 

It doesn't touch me at all

It doesn't touch me at all

 

"You know that you could do with a friend" she said

"You know that you could use a word

Like feel or follow or fuck" she said

And laughing away as she turned

"You're everything but no-one

Like the last man on earth"

"And when I die" I said

"I'll leave you it all"

Door closes...

Leaves me cold

 

It doesn't touch me at all

It doesn't touch me at all

 

"You really do need a sister" she said

"You really do need a girl to call your own... like...

Wonderful! Wonderful!

Call me Wonderful!"

And running her hands so slow

"You stare at me all strange" she said

"Are you hungry for more?"

"I've had enough" I said

"Please leave me alone

Please go...

Please go"

Doing The Unstuck

 

It's a perfect day for letting go

For setting fire to bridges

Boats

And other dreary worlds you know

Let's get happy!

It's a perfect day for making out

To wake up with a smile

Without a doubt

To burst grin giggle bliss skip jump sing and shout

Let's get happy!

 

"But it's much too late" you say

"For doing this now

We should have done it then"

Well it just goes to show

How wrong you can be

And how you really should know

That it's never too late

To get up and go...

 

It's a perfect day for kiss and swell

For rip-zipping button-popping kiss and well...

There's loads of other stuff can make you yell

Let's get happy!

It's a perfect day for doing the unstuck

For dancing like you can't hear the beat

And you don't give a further thought

To things like feet

Let's get happy!

 

"But it's much too late" you say

"For doing this now

We should have done it then"

Well it just goes to show

How wrong you can be

And how you really should know

That it's never too late

To get up and go...

 

Kick out the gloom

Kick out the blues

Tear out the pages with all the bad news

Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls

Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors

Oh just burn down the house!

Burn down the street!

Turn everything red and the beat is complete

With the sound of your world

Going up in the fire

It's a perfect day to throw back your head

And kiss it all goodbye!

 

It's a perfect day for getting wild

Forgetting all your worries

Life

And everything that makes you cry

Let's get happy!

It's a perfect day for dreams come true

For thinking big

And doing anything you want to do

Let's get happy!

 

"But it's much too late" you say

"For doing this now

We should have done it then"

Well it just goes to show

How wrong you can be

And how you really should know

That it's never too late

To get up and go...

 

Kick out the gloom

Kick out the blues

Tear out the pages with all the bad news

Pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls

Tear up the stairs and tear up the floors

Oh just burn down the house!

Burn down the street!

Turn everything red and the dream is complete

With the sound of your world

Going up in the fire

It's a perfect day to throw back your head

And kiss it all goodbye!

Friday I'm In Love

 

I don't care if Monday's blue

Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too

Thursday I don't care about you

It's Friday I'm in love

 

Monday you can fall apart

Tuesday Wednesday break my heart

Thursday doesn't even start

It's Friday I'm in love

 

Saturday wait

And Sunday always comes too late

But Friday never hesitate...

 

I don't care if Monday's black

Tuesday Wednesday heart attack

Thursday never looking back

It's Friday I'm in love

 

Monday you can hold your head

Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed

Or Thursday watch the walls instead

It's Friday I'm in love

 

Saturday wait

And Sunday always comes too late

But Friday never hesitate...

 

Dressed up to the eyes

It's a wonderful surprise

To see your shoes and your spirits rise

Throwing out your frown

And just smiling at the sound

And as sleek as a shriek

Spinning round and round

Always take a big bite

It's such a gorgeous sight

To see you eat in the middle of the night

You can never get enough

Enough of this stuff

It's Friday

I'm in love

Trust

 

There is no-one left in the world

That I can hold onto

There is really no-one left at all

There is only you

And if you leave me now

You leave all that we were

Undone

There is really no-one left

You are the only one

 

And still the hardest part for you

To put your trust in me

I love you more than I can say

Why won't you just believe?

 

A Letter To Elise

 

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you say

I just can't stay here every yesterday

Like keep on acting out the same

The way we act out

Every way to smile

Forget

And make-believe we never needed

Any more than this

Any more than this

 

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you do

I know I'll never really get inside of you

To make your eyes catch fire

The way they should

The way the blue could pull me in

If they only would

If they only would

At least I'd lose this sense of sensing something else

That hides away

From me and you

There're worlds to part

With aching looks and breaking hearts

And all the prayers your hands can make

Oh I just take as much as you can throw

And then throw it all away

Oh I throw it all away

Like throwing faces at the sky

Like throwing arms round

Yesterday

I stood and stared

Wide-eyed in front of you

And the face I saw looked back

The way I wanted to

But I just can't hold my tears away

The way you do

 

Elise believe I never wanted this

I thought this time I'd keep all of my promises

I thought you were the girl I always dreamed about

But I let the dream go

And the promises broke

And the make-believe ran out...

 

So Elise

It doesn't matter what you say

I just can't stay here every yesterday

Like keep on acting out the same

The way we act out

Every way to smile

Forget

And make-believe we never needed

Any more than this

Any more than this

 

And every time I try to pick it up

Like falling sand

As fast as I pick it up

It runs away through my clutching hands

But there's nothing else I can really do

There's nothing else I can really do

There's nothing else

I can really do

At all...

Cut

 

If only you'd never speak to me

The way that you do

If only you'd never speak like that

It's like listening to

A breaking heart

A falling sky

Fire go out and friendship die

I wish you felt the way that I still do

The way that I still do

 

If only you'd never look at me

The way that you do

If only you'd never look like that

When I look at you

I see face like stone

Eyes of ice

Mouth so sweetly telling lies

I wish you felt the way that I still do

The way that I still do

But you don't

You don't feel anymore

You don't care anymore

It's all gone

 

If only you'd never pull from me

The way that you do

If only you'd never pull like that

When I'm with you

I feel hopeless hands helplessly

Pulling you back close to me

I wish you felt the way that I still do

The way that I still do

 

If only you'd ever speak to me

The way you once did

Look at me the way you once did

Pull to me the way you once did

But you don't

You don't feel anymore

You don't care anymore

It's all gone

It's all gone

To Wish Impossible Things

 

Remember how it used to be

When the sun would fill the sky

Remember how we used to feel

Those days would never end

Those days would never end

 

Remember how it used to be

When the stars would fill the sky

Remember how we used to dream

Those nights would never end

Those nights would never end

 

It was the sweetness of your skin

It was the hope of all we might have been

That filled me with the hope to wish

Impossible things

To wish impossible things

 

But now the sun shines cold

And all the sky is grey

The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears

And all I wish

Is gone away

All I wish

Is gone away

 

All I wish

Is gone away

End

 

I think I've reached that point

Where giving up and going on

Are both the same dead end to me

Are both the same old song

 

I think I've reached that point

Where every wish has come true

And tired disguised oblivion

Is everything I do

 

Please stop loving me

Please stop loving me

I am none of these things

 

I think I've reached that point

Where all the things you have to say

And hopes for something more from me

Are just games to pass the time away

 

Please stop loving me

Please stop loving me

I am none of these things

 

I think I've reached that point

Where every word that you write

Of every blood dark sea

And every soul black night

And every dream you dream me in

And every perfect free from sin

And burning eyes

And hearts on fire

Are just the same old song

 

Please stop loving me

Please stop loving me

I am none of these things

I am none of these things

 

I am none of these things